Kabukibears Youtube account closed?!?!

KaminaSora

Joined: Jul 20 2008

that's so unfair. Kabukibear has the original videos of his OWN tabs and people would rather seem other people covering him instead, missing his awesome playing!!!

I read he's working on an new project, if it goes right it would make up for this long eclipse in our world ^^m

Well that make us the choosen ones, the only ones to get to see and download his videos XD

Vic9mm

The Fingerstyle Mechanic

Location: Dallas Texas

Joined: Aug 27 2008

KaminaSora said

that's so unfair. Kabukibear has the original videos of his OWN tabs and people would rather seem other people covering him instead, missing his awesome playing!!!

I read he's working on an new project, if it goes right it would make up for this long eclipse in our world ^^m

Well that make us the choosen ones, the only ones to get to see and download his videos XD

I enjoyed all of his videos and im glad he knew that. He is an insperation to people I hope he knows that if we dont here from him anymore

Vic9mm

The Fingerstyle Mechanic

Location: Dallas Texas

Joined: Aug 27 2008

smiley said

Vic9mm said

KaminaSora said

that's so unfair. Kabukibear has the original videos of his OWN tabs and people would rather seem other people covering him instead, missing his awesome playing!!!

I read he's working on an new project, if it goes right it would make up for this long eclipse in our world ^^m

Well that make us the choosen ones, the only ones to get to see and download his videos XD

I enjoyed all of his videos and im glad he knew that. He is an insperation to people I hope he knows that if we dont here from him anymore

Vic!!!!
Dont even think such thoughts!
How can that be possible, us not hearing from him anymore!
I can't imagine... =(

Somtimes life gets in the way of things you love doing bro that all im saying and if thats the case so be it.

auriplane

Snailboat

Location: Santa Clara, CA

Joined: Sep 06 2008

;-;

Come back, Kabukibear! We miss you!

ronito

Decisive Battler

Location: Northern Cali, USA

Joined: May 21 2007

come to think of it I haven't heard anything from him in a while. And I was expecting a response from him on the Hollyanna #4. Strange. Hope he's ok. Maybe he's just tired of it.

po_po

Location: Alberta

Joined: Sep 11 2008

:O come to think of it.. he hasn't posted anything lately on his account O.O i hope he comes back soon..

Rafaga

^(o.o)^ that's a moogle

Location: Chile - Iqq

Joined: May 08 2008

If he hears us, i hope he'll know that the community is missing him and his music,
i personally don't want an user to leave the site, it's great at this is.

thiagobpaiva

Thiago

Location: BRAZIL

Joined: Feb 10 2009

that is a terrible thing.
i dont get so much english, but if i understand well, kabuki is working in a project and will be back soon??
well if is that the case i relieved.
be back soon friend

Waladuz

Der Kritiker

Location: Germany

Joined: May 31 2008

archard said

Maybe we should have a Kabukibear appreciation day on here, where we start a Kabukibear appreciation thread and let me know how much we miss him.

Yeah, i agree. Maybe on his birthday.

Question is, when is his birthday?

And the second question is, will he even hear about it?

Waladuz

Der Kritiker

Location: Germany

Joined: May 31 2008

Kabuki...man, I didn't know.

I'm not angry at you, and I think that we all aren't for deleting the videos. In a matter of fact, it is good as long as it helps you. You really are an artist, kabuki, and so are some of us, and I understand you.

I've been drawing countless comics, but in the end, I came to understand how senseless my works turned out to be. So I took a break to brush up my skills and just go on forward than just doing the same thing over and over again.

I hope you find your way in life, kabuki...bear.

Vic9mm

The Fingerstyle Mechanic

Location: Dallas Texas

Joined: Aug 27 2008

Kabukibear said

Nah, I'm not dead. I've just, recently, been looking hard at where I am in life and I didn't like what I saw.

I'll be honest, I want to do this stuff for a living. Not performing, but arranging. However, I started arranging years ago and it just sort of hit me the other day that I haven't progressed towards that goal at all. I've been doing arrangements and recording videos, which is fine, I enjoy sharing. But the longing to do this for a living and publish a book has always been there, burning in the back of my mind. I kept trying to push myself, kept telling myself it's fine and that I should just keep working on music. At the moment my desktop is full of half-finished arrangements or ones that barely got started, but the drive to do it has all but dried up. I can't help but ask the question "Am I just deluding myself? Am I just wasting time?"

It's not that I'm greedy or that I won't do this if I'm not getting paid for it. I just feel like someone who dreams of becoming a professional painter, who feels like they have the ability to do just as good a job as those out there now, but instead is stuck painting houses. It's the frustration of wanting to do something more than anything, and being stuck doing something close, but not quite, and that difference making all the difference in the world.

I guess I reached a breaking point the other day when I deleted all of my account in disgust. I logged in that morning and instead of seeing a bunch of recordings I did for fun, I saw instance after instance of my failure to achieve where I want to be. It was a very sobering experience and I lashed out. However, it really is unfair to everyone so I might put all of the videos back up. Whether or not I continue to arrange and record, though, is up in the air.

I guess I'm just full of a lot of doubt right now, about everything.

(PS this thread made me smile for the first time in weeks)

Justin I know exactly what you mean when you say the words "been looking hard at where I am in life and I didn't like what I saw" Take it from me bro its not easy to see yourself one day and find out what you see is not what you wanted. Ive been there I know whats its like and you feel ashamed of yourself for letting it get that far. Your apperently at a crossroads in your life Justin and im going to tell you something that I wasnt told. Do what makes YOU happy if you want to arrange music and publish a book then go out and do it! follow your dreams to the fullest and never be afarid to fail because we all do, just some dust themselvs off and get back up others like myself never got back up dont be like me, yes life throws you curv balls and yes they sometimes hit you but its too short not to take a swing every now and then.I dont mine telling you my friend you are GIFTED you have this thing with music that just floors me every time I hear and see you play. You might not know it yet Justin but you already have showed what your capable of with your videos and rather you see good or bad doesnt matter you give something alot of people cant give "Insperation" and that my friend is the best gift you can give to somebody and I dont mind telling you. You given me alot Thank you.

ronito

Decisive Battler

Location: Northern Cali, USA

Joined: May 21 2007

Kabuki,
I know how you feel. I'm right there. Right now. Hollyanna #4 was my last go at it. I'm essentially done. Arranging is a thankless job and believe me I know the feeling of putting something out there that no one seems to care about.

I wont say come back to arranging. Being in the same place as you I know it's unrealistic. You and I over the years have been very similar in somethings. And I know that like me you've tried several times thinking "Ah this will change it. This is my best work." And in the end it remains the same. It's a heartbreaking thing and at times it feels like failure.

I will say this though. The arranging that is being done today is in large part thanks to foundation you helped build. I wont begrudge you if you move on. I had an inkling of what was going on when I said "Maybe he's just tired of it." I knew because I am. Still just because you're tired of it, or want to try something else, I sincerely hope you stick around the community. Who knows, maybe someday our paths will cross and we'll actually get to play all those difficult arrangements for two guitars.

But like I said being in a similar spot I'd say, good go and take a break. Do something new. Do something that excites you. If you decide to go back to arranging great. If not at least stay in the community. For me I started arranging videogame music because I was more than fed up with the Segovian repertoire and I loved vg music. But now I need to find something else too. Whatever you find I hope it serves you as well as arranging vg music did.

thiagobpaiva

Thiago

Location: BRAZIL

Joined: Feb 10 2009

(i dont get the english well, cause i´m brazilian, hope dont mind the errors)

Hey man!
Good to know you are around.
Well i read about you say, and i guess you have reasons to think about that.
WE all are looking for something that gives us a reason to live.
You are a artist, i bet you have a pure heart that gives you the ability to compose and performer guitar.
I really hope you find your way, i think you should get a job (if you dont already have) and do the musician job too. in your free time.its a gift, in a world like this you can hold your hand in a guitar, enjoy that oportunity, keep doing this.
Good luck in your way, you wanna sucefully i know that.
don´t stop study!

a friend from brazil

yoshistrings

inventor of the user title

Location: trapped in an egg

Joined: Oct 29 2007

archard said

Kabukibear, think of it this way. All this time you've spent arranging has given you an incredible portfolio. Although you don't think you've progressed toward your goal, I think the amount of quality arrangements you've produced in your own free time is enough to convince any publisher that you're the guy they need. It's just a matter of finding one who's looking for some great new talent.

My suggestion to you is to start doing some research. Look into all the different publishing companies and try to talk to others who arrange for a living. Most likely there are forums with people like that. A lot of publishers have websites with job listings and information on how to apply for the job, but even if they don't I would just get the addresses of a bunch of different ones and send demos of your work. Maybe print out all your arrangements on nice paper and get them professionally bounded or something.

I really wanna see you succeed at this man. I've always imagined buying a Final Fantasy guitar book with the words 'Arranged by Justin Lincoln' on the front cover. I know you have the talent, it's just a matter of letting other people know now.

I feel the same way. people with your kind of talent, Justin, are hard to come by these days.

Shurien

Joined: Jan 20 2009

I was shocked as well when I saw your account closed Justin.
However, I do understand how you're feeling....

I think there's a point in our life when we start doubting what we've done so far. Even if we are succesful in what we do....cause it's in our nature to do so.

I'm really sorry that you're going through this. I just want to tell you that you have inspired me in a way that few people in my life has.

I'll keep wishing you find your path in life, even if I never hear from you again.

Good luck!!

Eddy from Argentina